Changes

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I watched a stranger walk into your house today…

And though I knew it was coming, it was still so hauntingly surreal.

We spoke of retirement and your big move 6 months ago. Where has the time gone?

We watched you make the last minute repairs for your curb appeal, and when the sale sign went up we weren’t surprised.

We were, however, taken aback by how speedy the process was from start to finish. It seemed like only a couple weekends of visitors before the U-Haul arrived.

We watched you loading and arranging with every intention of popping over to say our good-byes, and express our gratitude and well wishes. But the day got away from us, as days often do, and suddenly you and the truck were gone.

Nearly two decades of comings and goings etched into our regular routine, done!

We weren’t close, but we had some nice conversations now and again. We could count on each other the way that good neighbors do.

Your successor has some pretty big shoes to fill albeit unbeknownst to him or her.

I guess we were in a little bit of denial, thinking there would simply be more time… until there wasn’t…

And now it’s too late to say good-bye.

 

©Dani Heart

6-23-2019

 

 

Perceptions

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Humidity, lush landscapes, and cool air forced through little vents occasionally remind me of you.   Insulated and isolated from the world outside in our rental car we proceeded with our mission. Brief interludes of camaraderie, when we were united against a common enemy, or a random life obstacle I recall fondly.  Moments when we were on the same team, team family, and had each other’s backs, or was it that I just had yours?  Did I mistake your uncommon lack of cruelty for kindness, acceptance, and love even? Did I?  The trouble is… I can’t be certain.

 

©Dani Heart

6/14/2019

 

If I Could Turn Back Time

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I would multiply and hold onto precious moments spent with you a little bit longer…

Time is so much more fleeting than we realize.

I wasn’t ready for you to marry and start a family of your own.  I knew it would change our relationship and I’ve never been very good at sharing…

If I’m honest… I grieved a little, okay a lot.

I thought maybe there wouldn’t be any more precious moments for us…

But then your son was born and you allowed me to be there in the delivery room to share in your joy, and it was an amazing experience.

Lil girl, you now have a lil girl too, and perhaps one day you will know exactly how I feel?

I will forever remember fondly our week long camping trip, just us girls and how you gleefully hopped us every chance you got in the Trouble game.

A college visit home when the house was full and we said you would bunk with us, only to watch you run and hop right in the middle of our king size bed laughing as you staked your claim on mattress space.

You were always an imp!

A full week of just you and me time when you were a teenager will always be special to my heart. Chicken Caesar Salad please (No Ladybugs)

Time and space separate us presently and it’s hard to partake in each other’s lives…

But I know going forward that our moments, when we can manage them, will be different…but no less precious.

©Dani Heart 4/12/19  (For Lil Girl)