Lessons in Futility

At a fifties style dining set

we chatted…

Often… as I recall.

I never liked the pea green mixed with chrome;

it always seemed wrong to me.

Even with only 9 years of fashion sense

I knew ugly when I saw it.

But you, you were an anomaly.

Something I couldn’t quite understand.

With well kept, short chestnut waves tucked

neatly about your head and curled in just the right places,

through ebony horned rimmed glasses you gazed at me.

With pursed perfectly painted lips you took a drag from

your cigarette and sipped your coffee with the best of them.

Like a dark after market version of the Sandra Dee doll who

was robbed of the benefits that good genetics bestow,

you wore your slim waistline, modest bosom, and lack of hips

well in your tea length dress with its alluring sway, that drew

my eyes right to your sturdy pumps that took swift strong steps.

I wondered if you cleaned the house like this…

and why you always hurriedly dismissed me right

before your husband came home?

As a grownup I have my suspicions, but back then

I was quite happy to trek through our trailer park in the ghetto

to space #9 where a woman I knew only as Marion

would transport me to another place and time.

 

 

Copyright 11/2013

Dani Heart

 

 

Finding My Footing

Finding My Footing

Today I rode a carousel,

on the beach in the sand.

As my decorated stallion peaked,

I embraced thoughts of adventures windswept

but the continual motion sickened me…

Round and round, up down, round and round…

and I recalled why I stopped

riding merry-go-rounds.

Copyright 11/2013

Dani Heart

Crimson

The skin opens…

bright red sustenance pools then runs…

and with it my sadness

the unbearable weight of despair temporarily lifted.

My heart aches, regrets moisten reddened cheeks.

An accidental tourist this path was never my intent.

Rational thoughts return as I tend and redress the

random wounds of klutziness.

Shame is now added to the somber emotions of a

blackened moment…

because I not only partook,

but I hopped that catharsis train like an

eager starving vagrant and rode it for all it was worth.

©Dani Heart 11/5/2013