Perceptions

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Humidity, lush landscapes, and cool air forced through little vents occasionally remind me of you.   Insulated and isolated from the world outside in our rental car we proceeded with our mission. Brief interludes of camaraderie, when we were united against a common enemy, or a random life obstacle I recall fondly.  Moments when we were on the same team, team family, and had each other’s backs, or was it that I just had yours?  Did I mistake your uncommon lack of cruelty for kindness, acceptance, and love even? Did I?  The trouble is… I can’t be certain.

 

©Dani Heart

6/14/2019

 

If I Could Turn Back Time

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I would multiply and hold onto precious moments spent with you a little bit longer…

Time is so much more fleeting than we realize.

I wasn’t ready for you to marry and start a family of your own.  I knew it would change our relationship and I’ve never been very good at sharing…

If I’m honest… I grieved a little, okay a lot.

I thought maybe there wouldn’t be any more precious moments for us…

But then your son was born and you allowed me to be there in the delivery room to share in your joy, and it was an amazing experience.

Lil girl, you now have a lil girl too, and perhaps one day you will know exactly how I feel?

I will forever remember fondly our week long camping trip, just us girls and how you gleefully hopped us every chance you got in the Trouble game.

A college visit home when the house was full and we said you would bunk with us, only to watch you run and hop right in the middle of our king size bed laughing as you staked your claim on mattress space.

You were always an imp!

A full week of just you and me time when you were a teenager will always be special to my heart. Chicken Caesar Salad please (No Ladybugs)

Time and space separate us presently and it’s hard to partake in each other’s lives…

But I know going forward that our moments, when we can manage them, will be different…but no less precious.

©Dani Heart 4/12/19  (For Lil Girl)

Things You Can’t Un-hear

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Ire flared and words uttered like poison laced heat seeking missiles pierced her heart,

And she was never the same…

Never the same.

 

Now she knows that if push comes to shove she might quake all alone with a bitter cold biting at her back,

And it isn’t the same…

Isn’t the same.

 

She moves forward in love and gratitude with a little bit more fear… disagreements happen, people make up, life goes on…

But it’s not quite the same…

Not quite the same.

 

©Dani Heart

11/13/2018