Sleep Deprived!

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7:24 am. Fatigued brain stirs from restless slumber and sends Body message to get out of bed.

Body resists, until Fatigued brain sends another message via bladder more urgently.

Body defiantly drags herself from bed.

Fatigued brain makes an abysmal attempt to converse before massive intake of iced coffee….and fails epically.

Body on auto pilot sees wifey off to work.

Fatigued brain, seeking sustenance, convinces Body to climb the stairs to the craft studio.

Fatigued brain would like to remain here in silent reverence among the many awe inspiring recently created works of art.

Heart butts in after 20 minutes or so with a reminder of the hour and commitments.

Arriving at work just in time, again on auto pilot, Body clumsily attempts to grab the remaining work gear from the car;  Badge, secured straight on shirt with much difficulty, apron whose strings manage to latch on to whatever passes by them and hold on for dear life. Body struggles with apron strings and finally manages to tie the bow behind its back.  Body clips up hair with hair clip, (easiest part of the morning so far).

A quick glance in the car mirror reveals Fatigued brain forgot to tell Body to apply the powder foundation to hide Body’s blemishes.

Heart sinks knowing their imperfections will be reflected in the faces of the guests they seat today.

Fatigued brain smiles sympathetically at Heart, who is always in the right place, and unable to grasp why things don’t always go her way.

At the computer clock in Fatigued brain realizes Body has tied the apron on backwards and must redo it to access their employee card to clock in. Heart sighs…heavily.  At this point they all agree on the merits of having stayed in bed. Now finally clocked in and mostly put together, pressing matters await. Because that’s how it always is…right? When we are least ready for our day it comes at us full on. Heart cheers them on…We got this! Fatigued brain and Body aren’t so sure. At home Heart reminds Fatigued brain to avoid the food and beverages that got us into this mess. At bedtime they ask the universe for good sleep, natural healing, but most of all, the re-emergence of Super Sharp Focused brain, and all will right in their world.

 

 

 

 

 

Changes

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I watched a stranger walk into your house today…

And though I knew it was coming, it was still so hauntingly surreal.

We spoke of retirement and your big move 6 months ago. Where has the time gone?

We watched you make the last minute repairs for your curb appeal, and when the sale sign went up we weren’t surprised.

We were, however, taken aback by how speedy the process was from start to finish. It seemed like only a couple weekends of visitors before the U-Haul arrived.

We watched you loading and arranging with every intention of popping over to say our good-byes, and express our gratitude and well wishes. But the day got away from us, as days often do, and suddenly you and the truck were gone.

Nearly two decades of comings and goings etched into our regular routine, done!

We weren’t close, but we had some nice conversations now and again. We could count on each other the way that good neighbors do.

Your successor has some pretty big shoes to fill albeit unbeknownst to him or her.

I guess we were in a little bit of denial, thinking there would simply be more time… until there wasn’t…

And now it’s too late to say good-bye.

 

©Dani Heart

6-23-2019

 

 

If I Could Turn Back Time

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I would multiply and hold onto precious moments spent with you a little bit longer…

Time is so much more fleeting than we realize.

I wasn’t ready for you to marry and start a family of your own.  I knew it would change our relationship and I’ve never been very good at sharing…

If I’m honest… I grieved a little, okay a lot.

I thought maybe there wouldn’t be any more precious moments for us…

But then your son was born and you allowed me to be there in the delivery room to share in your joy, and it was an amazing experience.

Lil girl, you now have a lil girl too, and perhaps one day you will know exactly how I feel?

I will forever remember fondly our week long camping trip, just us girls and how you gleefully hopped us every chance you got in the Trouble game.

A college visit home when the house was full and we said you would bunk with us, only to watch you run and hop right in the middle of our king size bed laughing as you staked your claim on mattress space.

You were always an imp!

A full week of just you and me time when you were a teenager will always be special to my heart. Chicken Caesar Salad please (No Ladybugs)

Time and space separate us presently and it’s hard to partake in each other’s lives…

But I know going forward that our moments, when we can manage them, will be different…but no less precious.

©Dani Heart 4/12/19  (For Lil Girl)