Borrowed Time

The weight of the waiting is crushing me…

Even the best-case scenario will likely steal years of our precious time together.

Worst case I can’t even begin to process…

I don’t mean to sound ungrateful…

So many never find what we have been lucky enough to share for so long.

You are my world, my light, my strength.

You’ve given me everything I ever wanted and more than I knew I needed.

Navigating this world without you is just incomprehensible to me.

I never considered… the cost of loving with your whole heart so completely… could be the unbearable pain of loss and the devastation left in its wake the day that it has to end.

©Dani Heart

2-13-2023

10 thoughts on “Borrowed Time

    1. Thank you sweet Cindy. I wrote this and another that will be posted shortly while we awaited test results. The waiting is so awful. Your mind always runs the gamit until you know and fear often gets the better of you. We’re good for now. 🙂

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  1. Oh Dani, I’m so sorry.
    I think about this a lot now that we’re so much older. Inevitably it will end, and likely Don will go before me. Navigating the world without him is indeed incomprehensible.
    Wishing you so much strength/love/unwinding/all that could possibly make it all a bit easier.
    Alison xo

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    1. Thank you Alison so much for your kind thoughts. We don’t think about these things when we’re young. We’re all going sometime and we don’t usually get to go together. The results while serious were not as bad as we feared. Anything that steals time is heartbreaking. We will lose time, but none of us really know how much time we have. At least we’re aware of what we’re dealing with and can act accordingly. Statistics do show that men often go first. I’m glad you and Don are going strong. xo

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  2. Melody J Haislip

    Dani, I read this three times, trying to convince myself I didn’t know who you were writing about, but it didn’t work. I simply cannot imagine. I pray for the brightest and most positive outcome. ❤

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    1. Sweet Melody, I wrote this and Tick Tock while awaiting test results. Though serious, things are not as dire as we first feared and were led to believe. The Universe is looking out for us. It always has. One day though one of us will leave this place…most likely without the other because it doesn’t happen often that you go together. Until then we’re living each day to it’s fullest and loving each other with reckless abandon. 😉 Thank you for your sweet words they and you are always appreciated.

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